Hello dear reader, as this goes to press, my site is aesthetically rough and somewhat uninviting, something that is not new for me, as you will soon find out, but it is functional and ready to serve you and I will continue to fancify it as I get into the rhythm of writing here. Although I feel my Inner critic reigning supreme and not pleased at all with this decision. But I have my own mind, well I hope I do by now. It’s been one hell of a journey to get here. When describing what life means to me I find my self using the following words;
”The goal in life, for me, is not happiness, peace, or fulfilment, but aliveness.”Again a quote popped up from Joseph Campbell, I don’t know how old he was when wrote this but I know it takes insight and wisdom. Joseph was one of my heroes through out my late teens, bestowing a nascent understanding in something bigger than oneself, that I may well find a place in this world one day;
“People say that what we’re all seeking is meaning for life. I don’t think that’s what we’re really seeking. I think what we’re seeking is an experience of being alive so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonance within our own innermost being and reality, so that we actually feel the rapture of being alive.”An indication of my dogged attitude to moving along with life challenges on the good red road, although it now feels relatively late in life.
“Do I contradict myself? Very well then I contradict myself; I am large, I contain multitudes.”You see my “backwards” manner of thinking and dyslexia did me no favours as a kid, along with poverty and abuse that came along with disadvantage, growing up in a relatively wealthy area in England’s South-West. And because I was different, society liked to imply, nigh tell me! That I was inferior, that I deserved what I got! I had no voice. I had to learn their way or it was the highway, at some point I ended up taking the highway out of there! So someday I’ll write a more detailed account of my experiences navigating the minefield of life. This is why I have begun to blog. But today is not that day and now I ask my self could you not end on the good word? Well, Naa “Feck ’em. Feck ’em all” Today is only the day I get to write My “First!” post, and now I think I will go out and celebrate this achievement and my birthday. Hope you are having an astonishing 2018. Maxim